Why they do this to me?

Assalamualaikum

I am jobless since June and honestly I couldn't stay at home too long. You know why? Because I feel awkward when staying with some people that we can call as 'bossy'.

I should not write this. But people, once you read this embrace yourself are you like her?

I had living with my eldest sister. She is very strict and fierce. Whenever she talks very slow and her tone changes to very calm, you know something wrong will happen. To be honest, I was stressful and suffered of living with her for 3 months. She is very kind, seriously. But, at any time she will explode with unknown reason. Sometimes, I feel like I shouldn't stay in her house since I know she likes privacy and she doesn't like if people touch her things.

Neither I.

But, I couldn't understand her. When she is too tired, she wouldn't talk. Even a word. Swear to God, that time I will suffer because if I didn't satisfy her like follow whatever she wants, she might explode! So I need to be careful.

Always.

You can feel how stress am I?

Or am I a dumb because couldn't think like her? I don't know. I am very confuse with myself.

Then, after I finished my studies I just stay at home waiting for any interview. Again the same thing is happening again. I couldn't stay calm with the condition like this. I am suffering.

Only Allah knows, how I feel.

Apart for this, I know my sisters are the best. Maybe because of mood swings everybody is becoming like that.

*Kecik Hati.*